Wednesday, November 12, 2008

exactly

Two pieces have been running through my mind all week--this drizzly, gray, cold week of November:

First, from Tony Hoagland's "Two Trains":

What grief it is to love some people like your own
blood, and then to see them simply disappear;
to feel time bearing us away
one boxcar at a time.

And sometimes, sitting in my chair
I can feel the absence stretching out in all directions--


and also the last line of Steve Almond's "My Life in Heavy Metal":


It is in these moments of tender and ridiculous nostalgia that I know something inside me is still broken.





Yes.

5 comments:

  1. Is the Hoagland line from Donkey or Narcisissm?

    That line from Heavy Metal gets me too. That book is one of a select few short story collections that just kill me every time I read it. Thanks for the last couple of posts, X. They've been wonderful.

    Viva olive burgers,
    D

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  2. Narcissism ... toward the end.

    Viva olive burgers ... on pumpernickel buns.

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  3. Tell me a sad story. This "cry" I need isn't coming out.

    I'm cry constipated.

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  4. Ah but I think we're all missing the most important Hoagland poem of all:

    Reasons to Survive November
    I know there are some people out there
    who think I am supposed to end up
    in a room by myself

    with a gun and a bottle full of hate,
    a locked door and my slack mouth open
    like a disconnected phone.

    But I hate those people back
    from the core of my donkey soul
    and the hatred makes me strong
    and my survival is their failure,

    and my happiness would kill them
    so I shove joy like a knife
    into my own heart over and over

    and I force myself toward pleasure
    and I love this November life
    where I run like a train
    deeper and deeper
    into the land of my enemies.

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  5. That one's printed out and hanging above my bathroom mirror.

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